Let Go and Let God
Bobby Krahling / Spiritual Formation Intern
I would like to talk about the phrase, “Let go and let God.” This testimony started off from this past 4th of July, although God was giving me signs long before that. I knew that it was never His will for me to be on several narcotic medications, but I still prayed for my will to be done and asked that He would please allow it. What I’m referring to is the doctors signing off on a certain pain medication; there were a lot of obstacles in order to get put on methadone. My wife disagreed, but the selfish self-centered man inside me completely disregarded her. The few times that I missed my dose time and couldn’t receive the medication, I would instantly have a panic attack. I didn’t think I could do anything except rely on myself and my will to search for anything other than Jesus to fix my insides. No amount of medication can fix a broken, hardened heart!
However, on the 4th of July, I blew up at my wife and she told me to find my own ride to the clinic. I knew right then that I was done being a slave to a drug and I voluntarily chose to go off methadone, benzodiazepines and medical cannabis cold turkey all at once! The withdrawal I experienced has been by far the hardest thing I’ve ever been through in my entire life! The godly men I had surrounding me were a perfect example of how Christ loves us! All I had to do was get out of the way and while I was still hurting, Jesus was the only one that got me through the toughest times in my life! It was time to let go of my way and let God do His work His way!
Meanwhile, for the past five months my wife and I were searching for our first home and we put in four offers on four different homes. Again we were forcing our will while still diligently praying for God’s will. That whole time we were searching I was still on all controlled medications. I am now no longer on any controlled medications and today (October 30, 2019) at 2pm my wife and I are going to the Erie County Clerk’s office to sign the deed to our new home and get the keys to it! God is always so faithful, and His timing is perfect, and His ways are much higher than mine! We all need to learn to get out of His way. Transformation is His work, not ours! I thank God for all of the godly men I have in my life today and for allowing this church to let me serve full time and invest in me! God will never fail any one of us!!! Let go and let God do all the heavy lifting!
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However, on the 4th of July, I blew up at my wife and she told me to find my own ride to the clinic. I knew right then that I was done being a slave to a drug and I voluntarily chose to go off methadone, benzodiazepines and medical cannabis cold turkey all at once! The withdrawal I experienced has been by far the hardest thing I’ve ever been through in my entire life! The godly men I had surrounding me were a perfect example of how Christ loves us! All I had to do was get out of the way and while I was still hurting, Jesus was the only one that got me through the toughest times in my life! It was time to let go of my way and let God do His work His way!
Meanwhile, for the past five months my wife and I were searching for our first home and we put in four offers on four different homes. Again we were forcing our will while still diligently praying for God’s will. That whole time we were searching I was still on all controlled medications. I am now no longer on any controlled medications and today (October 30, 2019) at 2pm my wife and I are going to the Erie County Clerk’s office to sign the deed to our new home and get the keys to it! God is always so faithful, and His timing is perfect, and His ways are much higher than mine! We all need to learn to get out of His way. Transformation is His work, not ours! I thank God for all of the godly men I have in my life today and for allowing this church to let me serve full time and invest in me! God will never fail any one of us!!! Let go and let God do all the heavy lifting!