Shawn King / Worship Arts/Audio and Lighting

“Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.” 2 Corinthians 4:16-18 NIV

This has admittedly been a tiring phase of life, so very good, but tiring. The hardest part for me is when my tried and true schedule from before kids just falls apart, especially when it comes to spending time with the Lord. One morning I got up before the kiddos, sat down with my Bible and starting looking at the words. I realized that I was expecting nothing from the Lord, and I didn't really even care. I had gotten so used to just going through the motions aimlessly. I think in that moment I just realized my complete need for the Lord. The verse above was the verse I was reading that week and it showed me how much heart change needed to happen in me. I went to the little keyboard and started playing and singing this prayer:

Change my heart, until I can't live without You

Let my heart break at the sound of Your voice

Open my eyes, let me see who You are

Roll away the stone of this white-washed tomb

I need You to rescue me from myself.


That's been my prayer, and it’s amazing to see that when I take the time to approach the Lord with desperation how He answers that prayer.